bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
- Kiwigiwi
- [Apteryx mantelli]
- Posts: 3406
- Joined: Tue Nov 05, 2013 3:21 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: Death
- Melon Pan: 81
- Wish: hehehe......poggers....
- Cards: Kiwigiwi's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
My throat hurts.. Whenever I cough it feels like my whole throat and chest is burning.
Just my luck that I'd fall so ill during my probation period too.. so even if I wanted to rest at home, I can't.
Just my luck that I'd fall so ill during my probation period too.. so even if I wanted to rest at home, I can't.


♡ Secret Santa Daisuki ♡
SecretsShow




♫ Much love to my secret santa of 2016 ♥
- Grish
- [Erithacus rubecula]
- Posts: 2139
- Joined: Sun Jan 01, 2012 8:38 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: birds
- Melon Pan: 101
- 2020 Female Favorite: Nagato Yuki
- 2020 Male Favorite: Kageyama Shigeo
- 2019 Female Favorite: Uraraka Ochako
- 2019 Male Favorite: Edward Elric
- 2018 Female Favorite: Nagato Yuki
- 2018 Male Favorite: Killua Zoldyck
- Cards: Grish's Cards
- Location: Wisconsin, USA
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
/me pets Kiwi
I hope you can soon feel better :<
I hope you can soon feel better :<
- Karob
- Seitokaichou
- Posts: 473
- Joined: Wed Jul 08, 2015 6:11 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: ♪♫~
- Melon Pan: 55
- 2019 Female Favorite: Ichigo
- 2019 Male Favorite: Azusagawa Sakuta
- 2018 Female Favorite: Jeanne d'Arc
- 2018 Male Favorite: Saiki Kusuo
- Wish: At the end of all our lives, to be able to say, "it was worth it".
- Cards: Karob's Cards
- Location: Soul Cairn
- Contact:
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
Adol: I've been dealt a nasty hand myself with physical and mental problems that have gotten worse over the years, though at least the hand was dealt to me softly. I had to quit work, college, and my main hobbies. I have to avoid and offend people all the time because of my hypersensitivities. I develop negative mental associations with things that are really dear to me. I'm so tired sometimes that it literally hurts and breaks my spirit. It's a really messed up situation. I am lucky to have a healthy tenacity most of the time, though. I understand that not everybody has that. I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. But anybody who has to go through the backwards bullshit of conditions like these and those has my sympathy and support. I understand that sometimes there is no way out, and that not every cloud has a silver lining. Personally, for me, though, I'll keep looking for my way out, my way forward or upward or wherever the hell is better than where I'm at right now.
Rev: I don't know what you mean about "bullshit new age peace movement stuff", but being able to appreciate the small matters in life is a wonderful thing (otherwise, why would I watch anime? ^_^) and is quite an old viewpoint.
Kiwigiwi: Three weeks, I think you said? That sounds really concerning. I hope you can see a doctor about it.
Rev: I don't know what you mean about "bullshit new age peace movement stuff", but being able to appreciate the small matters in life is a wonderful thing (otherwise, why would I watch anime? ^_^) and is quite an old viewpoint.
Kiwigiwi: Three weeks, I think you said? That sounds really concerning. I hope you can see a doctor about it.

MyAnimeList • AniList • Projects
"The right answer is to never stop thinking." ~Seikaisuru Kado
- HasbeenaHibiki
- Moon princess
- Posts: 3026
- Joined: Wed May 25, 2011 5:37 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: セニョール・ハズビーナ, ダークライ,クン・アゲロ・アグネス
- Melon Pan: 201
- 2020 Female Favorite: Nakano Miku
- 2020 Male Favorite: Kakyoin Noriaki
- 2019 Female Favorite: Platelet
- 2019 Male Favorite: Bakugō Katsuki
- 2018 Female Favorite: Kurumizawa Satanichia McDowell
- 2018 Male Favorite: Bakugō Katsuki
- Wish: A precure making it in ISML and a very popular male Saimoe. Also a Mucha Lucha anime. Darkrai in Saimoe
- Cards: HasbeenaHibiki's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
I hope you feel better soon Kiwi. ;_;
I find it bothersome some employers seem to rely on connections regarding to hiring people.
I find it bothersome some employers seem to rely on connections regarding to hiring people.

- Reverend
- ~Planetarian~
- Posts: 4163
- Joined: Sat Aug 16, 2014 8:26 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: Sofia Jalapeno Viviage
- Melon Pan: 4
- Wish: To die... ASAP.
- Cards: Reverend's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
Why is life so meaningless?
I only hope he's still alive, now that he has deleted all of his social accounts (again) there's no way we can contact him (as Adol, no idea if he has other handler names or not.)
in Adol's case, I don't think it will work. Thus I said what I said.Karob wrote: Rev: I don't know what you mean about "bullshit new age peace movement stuff", but being able to appreciate the small matters in life is a wonderful thing (otherwise, why would I watch anime? ^_^) and is quite an old viewpoint.
I only hope he's still alive, now that he has deleted all of his social accounts (again) there's no way we can contact him (as Adol, no idea if he has other handler names or not.)
Giving his love for life, and died dreaming about her in the end. A real happy man, right? ~
- Reverend
- ~Planetarian~
- Posts: 4163
- Joined: Sat Aug 16, 2014 8:26 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: Sofia Jalapeno Viviage
- Melon Pan: 4
- Wish: To die... ASAP.
- Cards: Reverend's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
I fell asleep when I am not supposed to and now I'm late! 

Giving his love for life, and died dreaming about her in the end. A real happy man, right? ~
- Chibasa
- [You can (not) Zura]
- Posts: 3096
- Joined: Fri Oct 02, 2015 1:52 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: Nero Claudius
- Melon Pan: 120
- 2020 Female Favorite: Nero Claudius
- 2020 Male Favorite: Okazaki Tomoya
- 2019 Female Favorite: Sakurajima Mai
- 2019 Male Favorite: Araragi Koyomi
- 2018 Female Favorite: Nishimiya Shōko
- 2018 Male Favorite: Kyon
- Wish: Anime girls to take over the world
- Cards: Chibasa's Cards
- Location: France
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
Fkin water leak at 5 am. Taking so many times to clean, and was almost reaching my cables :<
Guess I won't sleep much.
Guess I won't sleep much.


Secret Santax Time
much more stuff than ToadyShow










Hikarin is the best
- Grish
- [Erithacus rubecula]
- Posts: 2139
- Joined: Sun Jan 01, 2012 8:38 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: birds
- Melon Pan: 101
- 2020 Female Favorite: Nagato Yuki
- 2020 Male Favorite: Kageyama Shigeo
- 2019 Female Favorite: Uraraka Ochako
- 2019 Male Favorite: Edward Elric
- 2018 Female Favorite: Nagato Yuki
- 2018 Male Favorite: Killua Zoldyck
- Cards: Grish's Cards
- Location: Wisconsin, USA
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
/tucks Chiba-nii into bed
fuckin plumbing. Hopefully you can get some sleep.
fuckin plumbing. Hopefully you can get some sleep.
- HasbeenaHibiki
- Moon princess
- Posts: 3026
- Joined: Wed May 25, 2011 5:37 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: セニョール・ハズビーナ, ダークライ,クン・アゲロ・アグネス
- Melon Pan: 201
- 2020 Female Favorite: Nakano Miku
- 2020 Male Favorite: Kakyoin Noriaki
- 2019 Female Favorite: Platelet
- 2019 Male Favorite: Bakugō Katsuki
- 2018 Female Favorite: Kurumizawa Satanichia McDowell
- 2018 Male Favorite: Bakugō Katsuki
- Wish: A precure making it in ISML and a very popular male Saimoe. Also a Mucha Lucha anime. Darkrai in Saimoe
- Cards: HasbeenaHibiki's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
I am unable to quit that toxic job due to financial situations and no new job yet. My anxiety is getting worse due to that job.

- Reverend
- ~Planetarian~
- Posts: 4163
- Joined: Sat Aug 16, 2014 8:26 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: Sofia Jalapeno Viviage
- Melon Pan: 4
- Wish: To die... ASAP.
- Cards: Reverend's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
these days new job is a hard thing to get.HasbeenaHibiki wrote:I am unable to quit that toxic job due to financial situations and no new job yet. My anxiety is getting worse due to that job.
pets Hibiki
Giving his love for life, and died dreaming about her in the end. A real happy man, right? ~
- Karob
- Seitokaichou
- Posts: 473
- Joined: Wed Jul 08, 2015 6:11 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: ♪♫~
- Melon Pan: 55
- 2019 Female Favorite: Ichigo
- 2019 Male Favorite: Azusagawa Sakuta
- 2018 Female Favorite: Jeanne d'Arc
- 2018 Male Favorite: Saiki Kusuo
- Wish: At the end of all our lives, to be able to say, "it was worth it".
- Cards: Karob's Cards
- Location: Soul Cairn
- Contact:
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
I really hope you can find something else. Compounding work anxiety can ruin everything. :SHasbeenaHibiki wrote:I am unable to quit that toxic job due to financial situations and no new job yet. My anxiety is getting worse due to that job.

MyAnimeList • AniList • Projects
"The right answer is to never stop thinking." ~Seikaisuru Kado
- Grish
- [Erithacus rubecula]
- Posts: 2139
- Joined: Sun Jan 01, 2012 8:38 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: birds
- Melon Pan: 101
- 2020 Female Favorite: Nagato Yuki
- 2020 Male Favorite: Kageyama Shigeo
- 2019 Female Favorite: Uraraka Ochako
- 2019 Male Favorite: Edward Elric
- 2018 Female Favorite: Nagato Yuki
- 2018 Male Favorite: Killua Zoldyck
- Cards: Grish's Cards
- Location: Wisconsin, USA
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
I feel like people only like me because they don't really know me that well and I'm tired of it.
- Reverend
- ~Planetarian~
- Posts: 4163
- Joined: Sat Aug 16, 2014 8:26 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: Sofia Jalapeno Viviage
- Melon Pan: 4
- Wish: To die... ASAP.
- Cards: Reverend's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
hey at least they still like you.Grish wrote:I feel like people only like me because they don't really know me that well and I'm tired of it.
I'm going to give the most mainstream advice for this case: go find a real life boyfriend.
Giving his love for life, and died dreaming about her in the end. A real happy man, right? ~
- exec
- ~Senior Member~
- Posts: 1744
- Joined: Mon May 11, 2009 5:15 pm
- Badges:
- Melon Pan: 15
- 2020 Female Favorite: Aisaka Taiga
- 2020 Male Favorite: Agatsuma Zen'itsu
- 2019 Female Favorite: Kanna Kamui
- 2019 Male Favorite: Shiota Nagisa
- 2018 Female Favorite: Holo
- 2018 Male Favorite: Astolfo
- Cards: exec's Cards
- Contact:
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
@Grishie, I would like to remind you that no one will know you completely, even you yourself, so it's kinda a moot point to complain about people not knowing you that well, since there is no good way of telling who knows you well and who doesn't. I would recommend just enjoying the ride and not getting too smug about it, since popularity fades away. The main idea is how you can use it to your interest. Mind you your interest might be anything, including things not to your benefit. So what I'm trying to say is don't be emo about it, just enjoy it wisely. Also not knowing someone is a temporary thing, until you become friends or even closer.
- Chibasa
- [You can (not) Zura]
- Posts: 3096
- Joined: Fri Oct 02, 2015 1:52 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: Nero Claudius
- Melon Pan: 120
- 2020 Female Favorite: Nero Claudius
- 2020 Male Favorite: Okazaki Tomoya
- 2019 Female Favorite: Sakurajima Mai
- 2019 Male Favorite: Araragi Koyomi
- 2018 Female Favorite: Nishimiya Shōko
- 2018 Male Favorite: Kyon
- Wish: Anime girls to take over the world
- Cards: Chibasa's Cards
- Location: France
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
Dunno if you talk about here, RL or in general but replying anyway.
People may ignore some aspects of who you are, but if they/we like aspects of personalities they/we know about you, it's quite a good thing. ~
It's not because we don't have full picture of who you are that our love for you is meaningless. (And maybe internet is a place where you can be more free to be who you truly wants to be, which can explain a tainted perception of others but also ourselves).
Also, nobody is perfect, you might dislike/hate some aspects of who you are, because you are self-aware of your flaws (which is a good thing); all what you can do is try to improve in aspects you wanna change.
I'm not enough aware about your life to make assumptions, but if some people are ready to live in the same appart/house as you: that may mean they accept you as a whole and think your flaws ain't much bothersome compare to happiness you bring in their life. At least, I have hard times thinking about people not liking you but wanting to live with you.
People may ignore some aspects of who you are, but if they/we like aspects of personalities they/we know about you, it's quite a good thing. ~
It's not because we don't have full picture of who you are that our love for you is meaningless. (And maybe internet is a place where you can be more free to be who you truly wants to be, which can explain a tainted perception of others but also ourselves).
Also, nobody is perfect, you might dislike/hate some aspects of who you are, because you are self-aware of your flaws (which is a good thing); all what you can do is try to improve in aspects you wanna change.
I'm not enough aware about your life to make assumptions, but if some people are ready to live in the same appart/house as you: that may mean they accept you as a whole and think your flaws ain't much bothersome compare to happiness you bring in their life. At least, I have hard times thinking about people not liking you but wanting to live with you.


Secret Santax Time
much more stuff than ToadyShow










Hikarin is the best
- Homura
- [Apprentice Magician]
- Posts: 3121
- Joined: Wed Sep 25, 2013 3:25 am
- Badges:
- Melon Pan: 55
- 2020 Female Favorite: Shiina Mashiro
- 2020 Male Favorite: Lelouch Lamperouge
- 2019 Female Favorite: Makise Kurisu
- 2019 Male Favorite: Levi
- 2018 Female Favorite: Makise Kurisu
- 2018 Male Favorite: Yukihira Sōma
- Cards: Homura's Cards
- Location: China
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
Just a little complement to exec's writing. If you believe you possess sharp eyes, and then believe you know someone well enough and you two are alike in core part of your personalities, try actively putting in great efforts (privately 1 on 1, preferably) building the relationship. Once you own a couple of such deep relationship (with people who are not your siblings), the long lasting satisfaction would let you not bother about that your current problem anymore, unless you are a very rare type that is extremely hard to be satisfied in human relations (hmm in fact this could be your actual problem, but I feel the possibility is low). Additionally, I like how exec said "use it to your interest".
A short term solution to your problem is to have a good sleep lol
A short term solution to your problem is to have a good sleep lol

- HasbeenaHibiki
- Moon princess
- Posts: 3026
- Joined: Wed May 25, 2011 5:37 pm
- Badges:
- Worships: セニョール・ハズビーナ, ダークライ,クン・アゲロ・アグネス
- Melon Pan: 201
- 2020 Female Favorite: Nakano Miku
- 2020 Male Favorite: Kakyoin Noriaki
- 2019 Female Favorite: Platelet
- 2019 Male Favorite: Bakugō Katsuki
- 2018 Female Favorite: Kurumizawa Satanichia McDowell
- 2018 Male Favorite: Bakugō Katsuki
- Wish: A precure making it in ISML and a very popular male Saimoe. Also a Mucha Lucha anime. Darkrai in Saimoe
- Cards: HasbeenaHibiki's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
The cold I thought I was getting over got worse for some odd reason.

- exec
- ~Senior Member~
- Posts: 1744
- Joined: Mon May 11, 2009 5:15 pm
- Badges:
- Melon Pan: 15
- 2020 Female Favorite: Aisaka Taiga
- 2020 Male Favorite: Agatsuma Zen'itsu
- 2019 Female Favorite: Kanna Kamui
- 2019 Male Favorite: Shiota Nagisa
- 2018 Female Favorite: Holo
- 2018 Male Favorite: Astolfo
- Cards: exec's Cards
- Contact:
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
HasbeenaHibiki wrote:The cold I thought I was getting over got worse for some odd reason.

Rest well and drink a lot of liquid, get better.
- Tokei Shikake Tenshi
- Rogue
- Posts: 375
- Joined: Thu Jun 19, 2014 7:02 pm
- Worships: Yuki Kajiura
- Melon Pan: 55
- Wish: Chocolate sundaes
- Cards: Tokei Shikake Tenshi's Cards
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
I'm back after a hiatus of something like a year haha <3 but things have been hard recently.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm studying BDS (Bachelors in Dental Surgery) and I'm almost done with my first year- but I'm not sure if it's something I want to do for myself or something that my family chose for me. I mean, I'm certainly not unhappy about doing it to the extent where I want to drop out- but it doesn't make me happy either. I have friends who are pursuing careers like photography and music- pursuing things they genuinely like- and I've realized that I'm the only one in my circle of friends from school who isn't doing something they like. The thing is that even if I told my parents that dentistry isn't making me happy, I wouldn't be able to tell them what makes me happy because I kind of... don't know.
And I've lost interest in a bunch of things that I used to like- including anime and gaming and writing and reading and I just don't know why this is happening. There's just very little that makes me happy. It's like everything is spinning out of control and I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm studying BDS (Bachelors in Dental Surgery) and I'm almost done with my first year- but I'm not sure if it's something I want to do for myself or something that my family chose for me. I mean, I'm certainly not unhappy about doing it to the extent where I want to drop out- but it doesn't make me happy either. I have friends who are pursuing careers like photography and music- pursuing things they genuinely like- and I've realized that I'm the only one in my circle of friends from school who isn't doing something they like. The thing is that even if I told my parents that dentistry isn't making me happy, I wouldn't be able to tell them what makes me happy because I kind of... don't know.
And I've lost interest in a bunch of things that I used to like- including anime and gaming and writing and reading and I just don't know why this is happening. There's just very little that makes me happy. It's like everything is spinning out of control and I don't know what to do.

Gyate~Show



Meguca, Donut-chan and Neptune
- exec
- ~Senior Member~
- Posts: 1744
- Joined: Mon May 11, 2009 5:15 pm
- Badges:
- Melon Pan: 15
- 2020 Female Favorite: Aisaka Taiga
- 2020 Male Favorite: Agatsuma Zen'itsu
- 2019 Female Favorite: Kanna Kamui
- 2019 Male Favorite: Shiota Nagisa
- 2018 Female Favorite: Holo
- 2018 Male Favorite: Astolfo
- Cards: exec's Cards
- Contact:
Re: bitter, depressed, weak, frustrated, but why?
Welcome back,
welp, what you are experiencing is called life, some people call it differently, but basically you have too much on your plate that's why you lose interest in doing anything. Key here is to sit down and have some time to think about what you are doing and what you want to do. The problem is usually after that you need to actually start doing it, it's called responsibility, because you can't do everything and please everyone. You need to have your own priorities and be able to follow them through. So think carefully about what you want to do, what you need to do and what you want to achieve.
So have a good think and we'll be waiting for you.
Having worries is a part of life.

welp, what you are experiencing is called life, some people call it differently, but basically you have too much on your plate that's why you lose interest in doing anything. Key here is to sit down and have some time to think about what you are doing and what you want to do. The problem is usually after that you need to actually start doing it, it's called responsibility, because you can't do everything and please everyone. You need to have your own priorities and be able to follow them through. So think carefully about what you want to do, what you need to do and what you want to achieve.
So have a good think and we'll be waiting for you.
Having worries is a part of life.
