I have to admit, I hated her at first. Because she seemed heartless (goddammit YES she bloody stapled
his mouth) and acted as if she had no emotion whatsoever. And then I found out the reason she acted like she had no feelings was because she actually didn't
have feelings. The Crab had taken away everything along with her pain and she literally couldn't
understand anymore. In a way, she had as much humanity as Kyuubey (ie. none.) and all she needed was for Araragi to keep silent, which she did, in a way that would let him know she was serious as hell -- with questionable means to us, but probably not so harsh to someone who'd been completely shut off from emotion and lived in that hell for 2 years. The fact that she was incapable of feeling while the Crab still held her in its pincers, as well as her backstory (why she would ever agree to letting it take away her emotions and thereby creating the heartless bitch who stapled Araragi's mouth) sort of excused, for lack of a better word (mitigated, probably), her actions in my eyes.
Probably I forgave her more than your average person because I've seen friends suffer from watching their families break down (that line from the 2009 movie Fame
is probably the only thing I still remember from it:
"My theory is that when parents get divorced, they're given some kind of a handout. When my parents told me that they were splitting, they told me three things.
One, "It's not your fault. "
Two, "It's not your fault. "
And three, "It's not your fault. "
Problem is, I don't buy it.
I've seen the pictures of when you got married. When you were good-looking, and you smiled at each other. Hell, when you even just looked at each other. So what happened between then and now?
But more because my friend was raped a couple years ago by her step-brother and seeing how it completely destroyed her just killed me. It was indescribably horrible watching someone who used to be the
most energetic, most enthusiastic, brightest
person you could ever meet, just.. tear herself apart, jumping at the slightest shadow and being so scared of going home.. and I
felt like shit just thinking about it and seeing how harsh her family was, I can't even imagine how she
must have felt. So rape -- even attempted rape-- always gets to me. Given her position, I can see why Hitagi would let the Crab take everything (even more so, given that her mother watched
it and brought him home to do so
) and found dealing with no emotion, even to the point of heartless cruelty, aware of it or not, easier than dealing with than the shit she felt before.
What redeemed her -- and the series too -- for me, (something that Disappearance didn't quite
do for Nagato, nor MadoMagi for Kyuubey at all) was how Bakemonogatari showed her developing and trying
to regain that sense of self from before, and (for the series) how it concentrated not so much on the fact that Araragi and Hitagi were in
a relationship, but how
they were in one and how it progressed -- even to the point where all the interactions with the other girls reflected back to that relationship. How even despite having gone through the worst hells in existence Hitagi still accepted the hand of someone who reached out to her, and let him save her (something that given Japan's culture re: not showing weakness and doing things and coping on your own would typically not allow) and opened up to him, to the point where she tells him what she has, what she doesn't have and what she is and isn't ready for (ep 12): that made her moe, to me. Sort of like, 'with great wounds comes great pain, great measures taken to protect great hurt, greater still the healing power needed, but greatest of all is the effort all must put in' - style, particularly when they showed what she used to be like in middle school and the complete contrast now, that massive impact those events had on her.
I saw that dig (their disparate intelligence) as the reaction of a typical kuudere: yeah, you've seen my weak side, but don't you dare
look down on me. Like, protecting herself with the only weapon she has that he doesn't have. Words and intelligence.
And her inability to communicate and convey her thoughts/feelings on a personal level an indicator of just how cut off she had been, and how unfamiliar it all was to her, but also how she was trying to get it back and come out of her numbness back to the real world.
Maybe I overanalyzed it, but yes, the sky is everyone's, or rather no one's: all Hitagi has is that which we all see, but can't grasp; all she can give him is what everyone can give, yet no one can have. The pretty-looking emptiness is what her life has been proven to be up until that point, and at that point, it's all there was to her, but she was trying. And with that ending scene, she straight-up tells him that despite all her harsh words and haughtiness, underneath it all, she is
trying, and it's all because he saved her, and cared enough to stay there despite the crap she tried him through. He trusted her, so even though she can't trust anyone, everyone and everything
had let her down, she'd try, for him. Which is absolute pure ♥♥ for me.